Been spending loads of time in office.. Trying to rush another project for boss la.. Actually, its the DOM. Director of Marcom. She has so totally began to get on my nerves. I know it may not be entirely her fault, since she still has superiors above her, but oh well, I dun like the people who for vainity, take up my time and make me panic. Not to mention the stress I was put under. I'm having an outbreak now!! AHH!! It hasn't happened since I started work alright. ANd now, its back.. :(

Now I am kind of happy I got a job that I can go in my glasses, with dark rings, and a grumpy mood haha. And of cos my nice colleagues who somehow are able to put up with me ha. But they know I am grumpy once I keep looking at my computer screen haha. And did I mention that I actually painted my nails orange? Hahaha... Steffan chose the color la. Was not used to it in the beginning, but now I think its pretty cool. Boss called me an attention seeker but who cares wat he thinks haha..

Here's a pic of my orange nails!



Words been that COO aka the Chief Operations Officer (the names are all different, but they serve the same function lo), is walkind around looking at people's dressing etc. Seeing if they stick to the guidelines. So sian can.. And boss said it was getting better. When he forewarned us, I just looked at him with my eyes big big. And the only thing he can tell me is not to think about it, and life will really be better. Idiot leh... Also, he this week didn't bring us out to eat! Haha.. Making him feel super guilty about it haha..

Jus completed another DVD, the Salem Witch Trials. It really brings back the memories of studying literature when I was in Secondary school. Only thing is that I have forgotten how the story really went haha. Mebbe I shall look for the book and start reading again!

WEll, think MOS for this month is not gonna happen with alot of people not feeling well. The weather's been quite weird these days too. I've been slping late too.. So I hope nothing happens.

Now I'm looking into lasik.. Hmmm.. Wonder if I should really do it leh.. Heh heh.. Mebbe I will wait for Steffan to go with me heehee..

Family's going to Genting starting Good Friday heehee.. Will be back on Sunday nite. So fun! Hee.. away from Singapore again! :) Hope it will be fun heehee..

Waiting for Steffan to come back from his run. Shall go play more yahoo games. Tml got alot of brain work to do. Hope I can finish the proj by tml!

Havent been updating my blog again heehee...

Well, these few days have been working late in office lo. Cos been rushing some work.

Just watched SAW the movie, and well, quite grossed out. But I really like the twist at the end! Although its quite gross la.

Anyway, the decision's been made. I will be grounded due to a few reasons la. And its the few times I make alot of pple so happy with one decision!

Sad I gotta disappoint the other gals. I'm sure they will have alot of fun. Its really great to have gotten to know them.

And I got wat i wanted ha. Told my parents the family will be going on annual holidays, den got the weekly lunch out with the colleagues, where boss drives haha..

My parents are really happy. The family starts talking again. Boss is glad he dun have to look for someone new. And lose all the knowledge when I leave. Seriously, I think if I leave now, the new person who comes in will have ALOT of catching up to do!

Steffan's relieved too keke..

I still have this gut feeling in me that I will regret staying there. The regret is not from not taking up the SIA job, but rather, from staying there lo. But oh well, I gotta grow up and learn some stuff some day.

Really tempted to start my golf lessons. Since I will be there for some time. I should make the most of it sia.

Sat's suppose to be MOS day heehee.. Followed by dinner on the 4th. At least my life is no longer jus work and home. Steffan's busy with exams now. Waiting for his exams to end. Den mebbe we can really start on that scuba diving thingy heehee..

He's really stressed up. Even losing slp, skipping meals. He has never been like that the past one yr plus I've been with him... I hope everything turns up well. Will be bringing him to our family temple for prayers. The one which my family always goes to. It has been working great for my family.

Tml's another work day... And boss will be back. Today was quite fun haha. Showed Chris and Vincent the dormitory boys and they very tickled by it lo haha.. Hope they have fun watching it.

And Godma says...

Well, went to the temple with Amy today.

And well, I got a BAD lot today... Well, even Godma dun agree with it leh..

Now wondering how..

Well, I still have tml and monday to decide haha..

Shall see when I see boss, what is my decision lo...

I even went for the aura vision thing which Amy recommends. Realy fun lo. N quite spot on in certain areas. I'm mostly in the orange aura. Heehee..

The Balcony

Was there with Evelyn and Xingyi earlier tonight. It was a rather cool place lo. Other than when some ang mos decided to come disturb us.

And they were really annoying lo. I mean we made it very obvious that we din want to be disturbed, rolled our eyes, din look at them even when they tok to us, and they still continue to get our attention by speaking loudly and acting weird. But we just totally dun bother about them. And finally they left us alone.

Today I was suppose to meet the gals, and the super blur me got the place mixed up la! Was suppose to go to the HMV Marche, and i actually went to the Suntec Marche! I only found out of my mistake when Steffan called me to ask where I was. And he was like "thought u said HMV marche?" so i quickly called evelyn to find the rite place haha. So I was super late lo.

Everyone's looking forward to their training date. Other den me. Cos I havent even decided to sign it or not haha. Guan Yin Ma shall decide for me tml. I;m jus gonna take what Guan Yin Ma decide what is best for me. When I was younger, Guan Yin Ma was my Godma you know. Well, I was really weak when I was a baby so they believed in letting Guan Yin Ma adopt me so I would grow up. Also I guess they believed den I will have someone watching over me. And honestly, till this day I feel like the luckiest person ever!

I've got alot of things other pple have not had, and the chance to do alot of things others cant.. ANd not to mention the wonderful pple I have met in my life, well except for one or 2. Anyway, the great frens I have and the family.. wah.. Haha..

Wonder what Guan Yin Ma will tell me tml. Feeling anxious haha.

And been weighing the pros and cons the whole nite.

Its really an experience over career path kinda thing. Boss's offer is tempting la. i have been struggling the past yr, and he is finally moving me up the ladder kinda thing. Giving me alot of chances. If I take his offer, I'm quite sure I will have a stable job, and really promising prospects lo. But I jus have to deal with more shit when they come with more projects happening.

And if I were to sign SIA, the money is surely something wonderful. The chance to travel as much is also nice... Wah such a big difference leh.. But I'm not sure if I can pull through for SIA. I have a problem when I dun have enough slp haha.. So yeah lo.. Oh well, now not thinking liao. Tml ask my godma help me decide heehee..

I suck at resigning

Well, not that there are pple really good at it, but I think I must b the WORST ever.

Took my resignation letter to boss. Den kena prep talk for like 2 hrs. Got told to go back think till monday. Den after lunch, tried again. Den got another prep talk for anohter hr. Got alot of things that I would want, got promises and better perks la. Provided, I stay till June or July.

Got advice, even got offers to go other places haha.. It was just a really weird thing lo. Den I was put in this really awkward situation. HE jus kept persuading me to stay and jus kept asking for anything I want he'll try to give...

And in conclusion, my letter is sitting in the drawer of my table still.. What a lousy unsuccessful resignation la. ANd I got till Monday to think about it. Decided to let the Gods decide bwahaha...

Told my parents I resigned already, and as expected, they started their grumble lo. I jus continue with my low profile.. Not gonna tell them the truth until I'm very sure. And if I dun go, i think that would be a better news for them.

Many are wondering why am I still considering when I already got the job. And why did I go for it if I was not even sure about it? Well, I went cos I jus wanted to try out. I din think I would have made it through. Now that I have, its getting a bit hard to imagine. Imagine myself in the kebaya, going for the courses, waking up at unearthly hours to reach the airport, getting tekan by seniors, dealing with unreasonable passengers. Den again, this is the challenge I would like to take up.

The change in job scope and monetary terms, and the chance to learn is also tempting. But I will still be stuck in IT line. So I'm not that sure as well. The monetary terms is the best lo.. I mean more money means I can do more things lo. And it will be at a place I am comfortable in, I will be near my frens and family, and MOST importantly, everyone will be very happy lo. And I will be happy with my higher pay and when everybody else is happy. As to SIA, if I take this path, then I would just have to treat working in SQ as jus something I was not meant to do lo. I could look for happier things other place.

It would seem silly la. But den depends on what I think of by Monday lo..

Sometimes I wonder if my boss is too wonderful.

tongue twister....V

From the movie V for Vendetta

"This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vangquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition.

The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."

Told Dad

Just had a talk with dad. Could tell he was in a big dilemma. He wanted to leave me to make the decision, but it was not the answer he wanted. He just wanted me to think it over carefully, and make sure I don't regret anything. Also, to love myself and take good care when I am out there on my own. And I could only say yes I will, and yeah I will think it over carefully. Havent print my letter yet. Tml shall go to office print lo...

Mixed feelings at this point. But then again, i thought of a plan haha. Decided to jus resign. And wait for the SIA package to come. If there comes a point where I dun wan do SIA den I can always slack at home haha. Just dun go and sign the package lo haha. Think my parents will be happier if I stay at home then go for the job... Even if I am jobless and jus slack at home lo.

Feeling a bit lost at the sudden "freedom" to make my own choices.. Finally I am responsible for myself. And dad's like mum, worried about how i handle relationships. Think I should really be more careful when I am out there...

Now its up to me to make the final step liao...

Wish me luck!

Told Mum

Well, just told mum my decision. Strangely, she is quite calm about it.. She did try to discourage me but I said I wanted it and so she jus reminded me to be careful and everything lo. Quite sweet lo. But she reminded me to tell my dad too..

Well, not that dad is difficult. But I dun like to see his face when he is sad and disappointed its jus very heartbreaking... THe most difficult person in the family now is actually my aunt lo... Well, she's got this horror syndicate story from a rather reliable source so dun noe how.. And there's no reason to not trust her.. But I guess sometimes she is also quite open-minded lo. In the sense that she can see that we have grown up and are ready to make our decisions... So yeah..

Oh well, if I decided on it den i should learn to face the music lo. Shall wait.. Will update more tonight.. Mebbe my aunt will be aslp liao keke..

Anyway, too early to say. dad will be back only real late.

So meanwhile, here are the photos that I promised of my cute fan heh heh. Realised that my previous files were too big to be uploaded into Blogger. So I crop the image and uploaded it.

I GOT IT!!

Well, as the message tells you, I got the call this morning at 1104 to be exact haha. Got the time off my hp record. Everyone was very hyped up when evelyn got the call haha.. Konwing that I was the next person on the list, I knew it would be my turn soon. Unless I din get it.

Then I wanted to leave the room and answer the call. But who knew that the stretch I had to walk out had no reception at all lo. And by the time I found a place with reception, the lady hung up liao.

So i tried calling back a few times, only to hear an automated voice mail so I gave up, and went back office to wait. AT 1107, it came again heehee. And I was at my desk, listening to the instructions heehee.

Well, now is the time have to think over some stuff now lo.. Deadline is this thursday kinda thing..

Happy and sad both at the same time. happy that I got in lo. But sad too cos I will have to tell my parents and have to start thinking if I should really take up the offer. Not that I'm not interested in flying, but there are too many factors to consider... THe politics, stress, not being in Singapore too often to be with Steffan, the pay and also my parents.

Most problematic is that if I'm someone who decides on the path, I'll be focused on it. Now, the problem is making that decision. I'm tempted to go to see the world. But den I doubt myself if I can deal with the politics. I mean I hope I wont be in it lo. I jus wan to fly and have fun, meet pple. Of cos I will have to work along the way which I dun mind. But politics is not really my cup of tea. And being in a tin can several hundred thousands above ground, I guess its hard to escape.

And not to forget the flying ard, waking up in unearthly hours, being disciplined to slp on time etc... I'm wondering if it will be tough..

And I'm sure gonna miss my bf SO much if i start flying lo. And I'm afraid things will change.. and if that will be the case, den i really dun wanna take it up lo. I cant anticipate any such changes and I'm sure we will take great effort to make sure everything will be intact. Actually I feel we can really last heh hehe.. sorry for the mushy input haha.. But yeah.. I nv felt so strongly before. Cos he's jus REALLY GREAT lo! So much GREATER GREATER. I LOVE U BABY!!

Well, another hurdle will be my parents. Told mum abt it. And got an earful from her. She kept stressing I'm super blur, my thinking is very childish, cos i believe in platonic relationships. She thinks I'm easy. Yes, easy in those degrading sense. I'm so disappointed. The words they say jus shows how much they understand me. I have done silly things in the past, but I've grown up, learnt my lesson from it.

Actually when it comes to seeing pple, its tough lo. Only time can tell how a person can really b. And in times of trouble, those who stay with u are those true. Mum's worried about my relationship handling. i think I can manage. I can still be real girlie if I wan to. I came from an all-girls sch after all eh.

When she toked I clamped up. Cos I din wan to turn the talk into an argument. I was angry cos she was thinking I was a kid. When I am gonna be 23. I have changed if she has not realised...

She told me to convince her and tell her that I would be ok and can take care of myself. I jus kept quiet. Reason: No point saying when you wont believe me.

I can understand y she worry lo. Cos some yrs back, I got threatened by an ex. I got pissed off and called the police. I've still got the police report. When we were dating, he told me he went for some counselling in his sec sch days lo.. Mental case kinda counselling.. So I got a bit freaked. Worst, he was the one who broke up with me leh!! Obviously his mind wasnt really logical and so I got freaked, told my parents, went make police report.

Since then they have been worried... But well, I;ve really learnt my lesson lo. The really hard way.. But I'm glad I've met someone who's great in my life heehee..

Oh well, came to no conclusion today.. I jus know they are very against it still, but their attitude is jus up to me. If I really do it there's nothing they can do also.. Oh well, up to me lo. I've got till thursday....

Mood Swing..

Somehow it seems to be what I am having now. Well aint exactly mood swing cos I treat everyone else nicely other than boss.

Think he should be knowing I have been looking for job. FOr all that matters, he may be even reading my blog! Howdy! Haha..

Well, being in a bad mood was bad enough. And the lack of slp just aggravated it lo. TOtally din wan tok or hear my boss's voice.. But no choice la. He still toked to me and I had to listen.

Totally not in the mood to work too... Haizz.. Wondering why.. Cant seem to get work in my head. SHould be the lack of slp lo..

OK time to slp properly liao...

Thurs got new intern coming. Lucky Chris is taking care of her heh heh.. So not my problem, even though I can use her too hee hee.. I just hope she doesnt get into trouble can liao.

When she comes hopefully I will have a proper answer liao..

Buffet today was stuffing heh heh.. Ate till I almost couldnt move heehee.. But it was gd. I mean its not everyday we have buffets.

Heh.. missed gym sessions today to watch movie. And sadly, it was a disappointment haha.. But ok la. We enjoyed ourselves. Den when to Holland V to have Sushi Tei. Sadly, also not that good. Only the company was good heehee...

Been such a long time since I've been to Holland V. Anyhow, we decided to walk ard and try get the bus back. End up taking the MRT since it was more convenient.

Waiting for THE results still, but the feeling is not that scary anymore. Also, not that looking forward to it. Cos I cant imagine the reaction when I tell my parents the results. Anyhow, previous anticipation of it to be announced on Monday and Tuesday is too early liao. The best guess would be this coming fri liao.. It seems like a long wait. But have been waiting for some time liao. It doesnt seem so long anymore haha. I jus have to concentrate on doing my work too.. Alot of mess to clean up actually.. Although i super no mood to work... Sian of all my stuff lo..

I've got this new gadget on my lappie now heheee.. a present from Steffan heh heh.. really cute and useful. Now I have a fan blowing at me while I use my lappie heh heh.. Here's a picture of it when it's attached to my lappie heh heh.. Look at the lights! Heh heh.. It changes colour all the time. Its so cool heh heh..

Darn, somehow I cant upload the pcitures.. wait till I can get it up..

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good. You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship. In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing. Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you. Your strength: Your dependability Your weakness: You hate being alone Your power color: Midnight blue Your power symbol: Shell Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

More late nights.

Other than the supper seesion yesterday, I think my parents HAVE to start getting used to me staying out late.

Went with supper with LY, G and A. And we met at 11+pm mind u! Hahaha.. Well, we din go clubbing, but we just went for supper. It was really really good! Loved the food alot! We went to this Hongkong cafe place. LY came to pick me up b4 we went to pick A. Did a lot u-turns cos there were alot of confusion in the directions haha. It was jus a cool nite to hang out. Went even though mum kept nagging and not to forget, I had work on Sat morning. Simply dun really care liao. Not that I'm leaving for sure, but working on Saturday is relaly a BIG WASTE OF TIME!! Nothing got done, I played Minesweeper the whole time. Got into a long long discussion with boss, which had no conclusion mind you. So I could afford the lack of slp la.

Came back about 130-2am, took my shower and went to bed. Dad stayed up to wait for me. But he din get to see me eventually. I jus heard his voice asking my aunt if I was back. Tml will be having buffet with the family. Dun noe how it will be like.. Shall continue with my low profile.

It was great catching up with the gals. Been some time since we met up. Thurs, met with JC, Jianwei and Danny. Jus a simple dinner in Marche. Now, still havent met up with Des and YW. Haha.. Both of them have been real busy.. Studying and working at the same time. Leading fruitful lifes. While I am still at the crossroads... Well, heard that those who went for Med on Tues received news today, meaning that we would have to wait till Mon or tues to know our results... Den will come the decision time..

Nite @ Thumper

Well, met up with Evelyn, Yvonne and Siew Hong to go to Thumper for a show and some drinks, just hang out heh heh. My first clubbing experience.

Only it din turn out proper cos I thought I would have enough time to go home and change and stuff, but my vendors left late and so I was stuck at office till late lo. No time go home. Went from work.

Anyhow, THumper is located beside Goodwood Park Hotel. Went becos Evelyn jio one. Her modelling agency having a show there and she was invited, so we went along to see how the place is. Rather cool experience, but just that the next day, we had to work so had to get back early. Boss was going to be back in office too, so can't b too lethargic.

Anyhow, boss been nice since he came back from his course. Got us some reference books, den he said he was sending me to attend courses!! Wah touched leh.. Den I felt so guilty cos he was like planning ahead for me. And yes, I'm the one in the dept he plans my courses for, and the few pple he sends me to courses first. SUPER GUILTY leh.. Oh my.. ANd well, my boss is nice as long as he is not breathing down ur neck and asking u to rush things la. Or when he ask u to squeeze the vendors. Or he ask u to pass msg from one person to another when you are within the same dept.

Almost spilled the beans but didn't cos nothing's confirmed yet lo. So shouldn't say too fast... Anticipating them to call on Fri or next monday... But shall jus wait and see how lo. Try to finish as much as I can. Sianzz.

There's UAT tml. Another test I cannot stand. Haizz.. This is always the part I hate about my job. I thought I was the programmer.. Den i have to program and manage all these things, how can I think properly.. Oh well, cannot complain cos everybody is doubling up other then Chris. Well, cos she's more of a designer. But she in IT dept leh... I picked up co-ordination on my own too lo... Wah.. I need a pay rise... Or something better lo. As in a more focused job scope.

Everything's too early to say now. Waiting for the impt call sucks.. The waiting period sucks. Cos it makes me paralysed in preparing for the future.. But what else can I do but wait..

Met JC, Jianwei and Danny at Marche just now. It was a short but nice gathering. Our first gathering since we graduated. Still crappy as usual la. But glad that everyone's doing great in watever they do. And surprisingly, I am the only one doing the most IT job haha.. The encouragement is to change to another scope.. But I'm still waiting for the call heh heh..

Tml will be supper with Amy and gang hahaha.. My frens have this habit of asking me out at the same period of time. And mum was complaining I havent been home all the time. Its not really me you know. Just its all so coincidental leh.. Havent meet up with Des yet leh. And she's having sch holidays this week. Meaning if I miss this chance, I've gotta wait till like june or something b4 I can meet up with her. She's busy with sch during sch term and REAL busy. So its tough la. And she's gotta wake up even earlier den me sia... Next time mebbe will b my turn liao. Heh heh...

Hmmm now shall see when to go MOS with LY and gang. And Steffan wants to bring me to Zouk heh heh.. wait till his exams are over! :)

WHITE DAY

WOW CSI Season 6 IS BACK!!!

Didn;t know it was going to be screened on tv until I saw the trailer a while sgo on Channel 5. So I stuck on and watched the first episode even though I watched it once already. I'm just too addicted to the show heh heh.

Boss was on course today, and he will be on course tomorrow as well!! Yippee!! That explains how I can leave the office at 530, be home about 6+ and watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory! And its JUST SIMPLY AND TOTALLY FANTASTIC!! It is really like a dream come true, to see all the things you have read in the book come to life. And the director took great pains to make everything as real as possible. Johnny Depp is also able to portray the character so well! He look so innocent when all the pranks were pulled on the little children. The amazing factory is really something everybody can ever dream of! I just feel like reading roald dahl's books all over again. I remember Roald Dahl's books were always the most popular books in the library. It was hard to get your hands on those books. After checking the National Library Catalogue, it's still hard to find those books till this day haha.

Well, seems liek slping early did help my eye bags a bit. Mebbe a wee bit ba. But better den nothing haha.

The office feels so much greater when boss is not around. I guess all of us are less tense, since he wont come and bother us. Going to dread boss coming back on thursday.. No offense if boss is reading this haha..

Its white day today. Got the following definition off Wikipedia.

White Day is a festival that was created by a concentrated marketing effort in Japan. White Day is celebrated in Japan, Korea, and Taiwan on March 14, one month after Valentine's Day. On Valentine's Day, women give gifts to men; on White Day, men who received chocolate on Valentine's Day return the favor and give gifts to women. This holiday is also beginning to catch on in America[citation needed].

There are many theories about the origins of White Day, but according to one, the holiday began in 1965, when a marshmallow maker started marketing to men that they should pay back the women who gave them chocolate and other gifts with marshmallows. Originally it was called Marshmallow Day, and later it was changed to White Day.

Soon, the chocolate companies started realizing that they could capitalize as well on this day, and began marketing white chocolate. Now, Japanese men give both white and non-white chocolate, as well as other edible and non-edible gifts, such as jewellery or objects of sentimental value, to the women who were kind enough to think of them and give them chocolate on Valentine's Day a month prior.

In South Korea, candies are the usual present.

Well, I'm a sucker for White Day haha. So Steffan bought white chocolates for me heehee.. I like the significance of it. And its good excuse for me to have chocolates haha. And I think its a sweet practice heh heh.

I'm now counting down to the day when I cannot wait any longer, or when I know there is little hope for me. Distracting myself at work is tough. My brain is too cluttered to do serious programming. Furthermore, its not easy to keep doing it non-stop for so long. I have been taking a long time, but there are always other things that I have to do first. I need a long break soon... I hope I can really move on.. This may be a good time for me to seriously consider if I wan to take up the job or not....

Ok, bedtime for me! Bed time's b4 12 today!

Here's my daily dosage of blog.

The wait for the results is rather agonizing. So now I'm trying to like distract myself by focusing on doing my work. Trying my best to focus on my work lo. Been house rather late nowadays, not only to avoid being questioned, but also cos the family's been rather quiet these days. I think I managed to get my message across that the FINAL FINAL results are not out yet. And that I will only decide when they offer me something on the table.

The small group of us who made it through together have been rather close. Or trying to stick close together. Well, it has been a rather exciting experience so far. Well, now jus slowly slowly wait lo. Who knows, scali I cannot make it haizz..

Today bed time is set at 12. Will bring it forward one hr daily until I can slp at 10+ or 11 heehee.. Hopefully my eye bags can be gone.. Although I heard its not very possible.. Other den surgery... But I dun wan leh. So ex.. Hope slping can help.

christopher: bored phuck says:
muz realli know how to network
n muz b quite gd in your job
if pple muz help u
they'll resent it
once or twice ok
cannot all e time
tat's for your team pple
e worse is e passengers
can b very demanding n unreasonable
muz find a way to handle them

I'm allergic to work. Is that what I really want? Can I take the pressure for at least 2yrs? says:
is ur team pple always the same?
christopher: bored phuck says:
NOPE
depends on e flight
tt's y i say u muz realli know how to network n b gd in your job
otherwise pple will juz criticise u
e 1st most impt thing is to do your job well
do your job well..pple can't say anything bad abt u
do your job badly
tat's it

That was just a short conversation and some advice I got from my fren, who's sis is now flying in SIA. So, I am up to it??

Today been busy busy busy. Watched A Beatiful Mind today, and Erin Brokovich yesterday. 2 great shows in a row is just wonderful heehee.. SO enriching to the mind and soul. I think both shows are just great! I just like Julia Roberts SO much!

Well, this morning aunt started her version of the lecture on me... Well, the whole family has been activated, now remaining is my brother only... I wonder when he would be mobilised to tok to me. I have 2 weeks to know my results, meaning I have 2 more weeks before I have to suffer a full blast lecture. That's if I make it and take up the offer.

And if u noticed, the lectures are the only things I have been talking about. Dad and Mum are acting as if nothing happened, and are very normal. But I dun dare to say much cos I'm sure it will lead on to ugly side of things. Trying my best to avoid it until I know how things goes... :P haha

I'm so afraid I will fail the hearing test leh.. Cos I couldnt really hear properly.. Ahh.. Scared scared. And I will only know the results like 2 weeks.. ahh.. I'm now trying to get as much slp as possible heh heh.. If things goes well, looks like most of us will be in the same class... Hahaha Wa toking like i confirmz liao haha..

2 weeks will be such a long waiting time.. AHHHH.... Mebbe I should go MOS or Zouk to start destressing.. Did I mention I have NEVER been to a proper real clubbing joint b4?! Its time to step out!!

I so hate going to work now. I think I really need a long break. One with long slping hours, and nothing to worry about. Looking forward to something like that.. Boss's been busy with budgeting and have been leaving Chris and I on our own to do things heehee.. And so we take the chance lo. Before he is free and den everyday come bug us.

I beter slp early nowadays If I wan to save my eyebags and my dark rings.. I sometimes wonder if I have started my rebellion stage too slow. So many things to worry, and no time to solve them.

I'm under tremendous stress..

Apart from within the family, work has been very stressful as well. My codes havent been listening to me and its not helping that I have headaches and neck aches when I work. Came back early to see the doc cos was feeling unwell. GOt an MC tml. Shall see if I want to go back work tml, although very difficult la haha.. But strange thing is doc gave me a blank MC which doesnt say what I am down with.. Oh well, hope its ok.

Haizz.. better slp early tonight hope I get well from the virus soon. If not its not helping that I cant focus on work when I have a pounding headache. And its not that rite for me to keep popping those pills and going back to the doc for more whenever I have those headaches. I need alot of rest..

Ok, I jus woke up from my nap heehee.. Felt terrible on my way back from the SIA place. I wonder why. It seems like everytime I come back from there, I always feel weird. I hope its my 'relative' coming den like that ha..

Ladies and Gentlemen, I am pleased to announce I have to go through the medical test b4 I am finally in. Well, of cos not forgetting I have to get past my family lo.. WEll, I'm not that confident about my medical test. Reason being, I'm rather afraid of the hearing test. Actually I'm not sure if there will be such a test, but if there is, I hope my hearing is not off... No more MP3s for me sia.

Medical is within the next 2 working days, which leaves me like only Saturday to go since I am workign tml. Well, the group of 12 shrunk to 8 today, and one of the few pple I met did not get in. So sad can... But then that's the harsh fact of life. I actualy thought I wouldn't get in cos I so totally flunked the interview. I toked abt the current company's guidelines and I so totally treaded on the thin line. they even commented that I would not be happy if I join them. I almost dieded in the chair lo. In the end, it's the paper to verify that I got in dat's impt. TOld mum about it. She seemed like rather resigned. Not happy but den I guess she is in a dilema as well.

Dad will definately flip... Argh I jus feel guilty. But I must say the pple I meet during this interview, they are not really bad leh. I mean not the stereotype that pple say. DEn again, it may b bcos we are not in it yet... Oh well, I'm adopting the wait and see mentality now.

When I was on my way back from the training center, I received a call from Lifestyle.com.sg, a shopping kinda online web. ANd they have a free gift for me. Ha suppose to go collect it tml. I hope it wont b a scam. Cos they reassured me that it wont be. Anyhow, I will be free so just go lo. See what it is about.

Argh.. the heatiness seems to be getting to me liao.. WOnder wat's wrong.. :( Hope I am well..

Wah things have changed!

Well, the mood has suddenly changed at home.

Mum's like back to normal again. Had a nice talk with her about my career choices. ANd the comment she had was that seeing me go through so much for the interview, it seems wasted to jus give it up. And she asked if I will turn bad.. I dun even noe if I can give a definite answer or not lo.. I mena I wont turn bad la. But den I'm jus afraid I will hate the job SO much that I wont mind paying the bond so that I can get myself out of there ha.

I mean we finally have a heart to heart tok lo. i mean at least they know what I am thinking and i guess she sort of gave up. But my stand is still the same. We'll see how things goes tml lo.

I just want to take this chance to thank everyone for all their kind and heartfelt blessings. Thank you so much for believing in me and giving me all the encouragement when I almost feel like I cannot go on. i wil try my best tml. I hope I bring good news...

Time for bed. Tml will be a LONG day complete with alot of waiting as usual...

They have finally said it... They ask me not to go for it... And now nobody in my family is supporting me la..

Well, the reasoning is that most flight attendants will be bad company, its dangerous to be alone in a foreign country, especially when you dont noe wat type of pple your colleagues will be. Terrorists and riots in the other countries. Plane accidents, perr pressure will make me change my spending habits, danger of drugs etc spiked by fellow colleagues. U name all the bad things, and they have it.

They think I'm in it for the money.. They think I cant think for myself. They think I'm not disciplined. Basically they dun trust me cos they have not done it before. After the long long lecture, their conclusion is that we have told u everything we want to say. If you still decide to go ahead, then there is nothing they can do, but worry and worry when I'm at work.. They a re always best at working on my guilt one la... And I hate it! I'm already guilty enough liao now when u spell it out den it jus makes the whole thing even more complicated lo..

Haizz.. Now I am in a big dilema again.

Reason why I would like the job. 1. its fun. 2.The money's good, 3. Its a totally different experience, 4. It may be the job I want, 5. I get to travel, 6. Not everyone who wans to do it can.

But there are so many off points that I cant take it. And my heart and mind are not helping by looking at both sides of the problem. Looking at the current situation, it seems like it will do alot of good if I dun go for it. But den I know I will regret it in my heart. And it will only get worse if I cannot find another job which I will love later. And my change in choice wont change anything in the house. They will still think I am the little kid with no control, and they will continue on how right they are to have stopped me from making the choice. I wouldnt have such a big reaction if they have toked to me about my choice in a different way. In a more adult way, like really letting me decide instead of starting with "Don't do the job".

Haizz.. Wah its close to 2 now.. There's still work tml.. I think I shall see how things goes on thurs lo.. Mebbe if I'm out after the mgt interview den its ok liao. Everything will be back to normal.. But somehow I dun wish to be kicked out. I rather be the one rejecting the offer..

My latest watch is the one on the right side!! Heehee.. Proudly sponsored by Mr Steffan Fung. Hahaha...

I'm down with something..

Went to Picton with a terrible headache, thinking that it was jus rather serious headache. And needed to get an MC anyway, so went lo. And guess wat?! It turned out that I maybe having a virus!! ANd I ended up having 2 days of MC haha.. But den no choice la. i have to go back to work tml still. Having things to do... Pathetic leh.. Haizz... Oh well, have to go back tml to take leave also. So ok la.

Well, today was realy fun jumping out of a plane and into a pool haha.. Did the swim. the whole kebaya thing, and the whole pschyometric thing.. And well, next week's the mgt interview. Had a long talk with mum about me possibly working in SIA. And she seems to understand my point of view better. Had wanted to talk to her so that she understand that I have thought it through, and nothing is confirmed until I am given the contract and sign on it. And even though after so many rounds, I still have to go through some more rounds lo. I just feel that if I have come so far and not make it, it will be such a waste wont it? But oh well, some things are not for me to decide also la.

Jus worry about it later when the time comes.

Now I am having problem with my thighs la. after the abs but thighs lesson, I am moving like an old lady la. Cannot sit cannot squat and everything.. But ok la. Its relaly good lo haha can feel the effect haha.. But now I'm afraid to go for anymore of the ABT classes. I was able to go also only cos I was on course den ended early. Otherwise, I wont be able to make it for the 6 something class.

Think dad's hitting the roof about my choice. I hope they are not having argument abt me lo. Like that time when I wanted to join the Pugilistics Society.. Why must like that.. I also quite sad la. Cos I know the main thing is dad would be worried for my choice of work. And when I'm on the job he will keep worrying and have sleepless nites.. And I know it will affect his health and stuff lo.. But den haizz... nvm la wait for thursday den see how ba.

Think the doctor is rite.. Having dry throat now.. Hope the virus is not workin up... OK la shall slp early. Tml have to bring the goodies i bought from Muar back to office ha. Will be like Santa Claus. Just hope got pple help me finish heh heh..
I dun wan to put on weight after all the gym class. Tml's suppose to be gym day again but my thighs are aching like hell. Looks like will have to be upper body only lo.

Think dad's angry with me making him worried if I choose he other job.. But now I'm not even in yet lo.. And mum can only keep stressing that if I get it do I really wan to do it. I think most prob will lo.. I mean it wasnt easy la.. And its jus the experience I am looking for. Have I really been too selfish to think of gaining de experience I want? Its gonna cause a strain on our relationship. Just like when I was in JC and in Lion Dance.. Den everything about lion dance would be taboo and this time, I think most prob he will hate SIA? Ha... Well, I think I shall jus stick to worry about tml...