Of Nature

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

One down, four more to go!

Finally finished the presentation. Worst ever in my NUS life. Cant blame me if the lecture notes are not clear and everything ma...

Anyway, I din think we were the worst groups hahaha. I think alot of pple did not know how to present lo. And since we're not the first group, I think the prof was already immune to disappointment liao haha! Lucky us!

Well, finally one more thing is settled, but still have 2 more projects, one small quiz and mid-term.

Quiz's one fri, mid-term's next wed, and proj's due like in 2 weeks' time. Aren't i busy!

Oh if pple have been faithfully reading my blog, should know about the aerobic class that I signed up last time. It's like FURTHER postponed till 13th April lo! They say they need 15 pple to make the class. Seems like they cant even HAVE 15 pple! Sighz! If this happens one more time, I definately ask for my refund. Trying to cheat my money like that!

Just finished CSI Season 1 last nite heh heh.... And later will have the last episode of Season Three. It's just SUCH A SUPER COOL SHOW lo!!!

Shall try to get to watch ALL the cds! but have to wait till my work's all done..

Throat feeling weird. Better drink LOTS of water... I think if I dun take care of it, it'll become a full blown sore throat lo. And this is definately not the time to fall sick lo. So many deadlines!

Going to do my work now.... At least I'm kept busy! :-)

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Late nights...

Haizz... Gonna be keeping up late nights again liao.... Deadlines deadlines deadlines....

Been really trying very hard to finish all my stuff. But it seems like alot of things can't be done on my own one leh. that's wat group projects are rite.... Haizz...

I already try my best to contribute liao. But everyone must work one ma...

Just watched The Eye 10. Actually wanted to watch it at PS, but its like SO TOTALLY full! Well, it IS weekend and the show's rather new so yeah...

For those who noe me, or have watched scary movies with me know that I'm really a scaredy cat la. Actually last time also not like that one. But like 2 or 3 yrs ago some how became very frightened. Anyway, went to watch The Eye 10, knowing most prob that I'll freak myself out.

Rather disappointing I should say. Wasn't as good as I thought it might be. I mean its still quite scary.. or should I say it has alot of scenes like things suddenly popping up in your face kinda thing. But other than that like nothing much. VERY humorous compared to the previous 2 series. Yes, u did not read wrongly, it was humurous lo. Got alot of funny scenes one lo haha...

And they also put some common jokes that we hear into the show. but basically the story just wants to tell us not to mess with things we dun really noe abt.

Got sad love story also one..

Must say the makeup is still not bad. But the show was rather short only. about 1hr 30mins. Another over hyped show. Sadly...

Been staying home during the hols. Felt quite nice to be home. Feel that the parents missed me heh heh...

And I got surprise at nite! Steffan bought me NYDC cheese cake heh. Jus finished it a few hours ago. Even bought my aunt a mango cake. Trying to score points leh. Haha.... I think it worked heh...

Oh late liao. Tml got breakfast date with him. Bedtime peeps.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Super busy

Wah, Havent update my blog like in ages. Its the longest break ever man... But I'm up to neck in work lo.

Life = sch. No fun nothing, well, but i did manage to catch Hitch, and spend time with my frens and with my bf haha... Contradicting huh.

Been spending ALL my free time in sch. ANY free time in fact. My favourite haunt will be SOC level 6 lo. Cos only ONE lab has all the software need to do my project. If possible, I'll like camp there lo. Cos my work is beginning to pile... And I hope to finish my 66 asap.

Still have CS3251 term paper, a presentation, SS 2nd mid-term, and a GEK test. Not to mention the SS tutorial which requires us to read the passages. Wondering if I should watch the 66 lecture which is supposedly a guest lecture. But being a kiasu student, shall just take a look to see if he says anything about phase 2 project.

I usually go and hide in my corner in SS tutorial. Never contribute at all haha just look interested.

Well, that's the max I can blog for now. It's back to work AGAIN for me!

Must do well for last semester!

Saturday, March 12, 2005

New plan, new service provider, new phone, new hp pouch. YEAH!!

Haha after SO long so long, I've finally made the move!

It's now a new service provider, a new plan, cheaper plan, and a NEW phone!! Yeah!!! Yippee!!! Dear dear sponsered me my new hp pouch and the screen protector. Hee...

Wah been SO long since i splurged on myself! And this time, its my new hp!! Cost me almost everything... but den but den, I'm still very happy with my new hp la heehee... Not to mention the VERY good camera it has la hee...

Today had dinner with his parents again at the Crystal Jade at Toa Payoh.. Argh I feel that I din leave a very gd impression leh.. Oh well...

I'm more worried about dear dear's health... His turn to b sickee liao. I think the crazy schedule he has is really taking a toil on him.... Down with flu liao... haizz... Any remedies out there?

Feeling tired now. Now my hp's on charge now hee... Shall have a good nite's slp first. Woa! My hp's POWER!! Heehee....

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Back to normal!

Everything's back to normal now hee... Jus as I guessed, jus feeling too slpy last nite. After a gd nite's slp, I'm well again!

Jus got home from lunch with dear dear heh.. He skiving again... Anyway, I'm suppose to go my first lesson today, guess wat, I din go hahahhaa..

Firstly I was late la, and secondly, when I alighted at the bus stop I was disorientated and din noe where the CC was... Finally found it after like 15 mins... But by then I was almost like 30mins late liao. So jus heck it la. Decided not to go in 30 mins late. Shall wait for the next lesson lo.. which is next week hahaha... =p

So, its back to the books for me. Tml got test liao... Hee... blog more later!
I'm suppose to be asleep now cos I gotta be up at 930am.. but something's bothering me....

I was able to push it off my mind when I was trying hard to study for my mid-term this thurs, but when I lie in bed, with nothing else in my mind, the bugging feeling resurfaces.

It was just planted there. And I thought I could handle it. But now, I'm beginning to doubt my own abilities. I mean it wasn't really a big fault, and I made the same fault myself, den why am I like double-standarding others?

I guess apart from my feeling of foolishness of thinking otherwise, it's also the frustrated feeling of not knowing why there would be a bugging feeling.....

Why should there when the other person doesn't care a hoot about it. Den why the questions.... Only if the question wasn't asked at all, i wouldn't feel so bad... and now, to make it worse, I have no idea how come I feel bad...

How ironic can the mind get...

I like to tackle and take control of my emotions. Because, I dun like the sad and depressed feeling... Cos nothing gets solved and u jus feel worse if u feel sad and sorry for urself. It may become something even worse, and u start to doubt urself.

It's not that I nv feel sad, I do too... but its for a really short period of time. Cos I'm able to think of other stuff, sometimes, I simply ignore the sad feeling, and other times jus turn it into some other emotions.

But to tackle the feeling of sadness, I need to know what is causing it. At this point, I noe what is not causing it.

Not being able to go to bed is making it worse. I definately feel better when I'm fully rested.

Maybe like he said, its becos he took it so light-heartedly while it took me some courage to admit... but even if he made the same mistake as me does not mean i'll feel less guilty abt it.. cos I'm still feeling guilty abt it, still regretting abt it.... its not like that compare one ma...

Sometimes I noe I'll hate the answers that I'll get if I ask a question. So to avoid that, i feign ignorance, or simply just not ask. Somethings seemed unavoidable. Like jus now. I din even need to ask...

Argh.. feeling really mixed up now. like I've mentioned, I've made the SAME fault as well, but I cant seem to take the fact that he has made the same mistake. WHY??? And there really isn't anything bad about being honest rite. Which I really appreciate and encourage. But sometimes, the truth really hurts. And I really can't handle the truth.. haha..

Herm.... nv been so melanchonic (however u spell that) b4.. Was always able to take things in my stride. Damn! I really hate this!

Shall study really hard and concentrate on my studies first. Tests are more impt. Other things when I more free den say ba. Tackle the things that are at hand first. Mayb I'm jus stressed up. When the tests over, and I get my long long slp, things will be ok.

Alright, I tire myself out enuf liao. Shall try go to bed.. I need feel better... Wonder how will tml's class be...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

You are Silver Pegasus type, who looks active, and gives an impression of being a tom-boy.

You are extremely cheerful and good natured.

You can easily get emotional and start crying, you are rather too soft hearted.Also, you are very obstinate and simple minded.

You easily give up on things and have weak will power to finish what you have started.

You tend to be sarcastic and critical, but on the other hand, you can show great devotion and dedication.

Your attitude lacks steadiness, and is always changing.

You always worry about what the other people are thinking and can be bit too sensitive.But you are a person who naturally becomes a center of everything.

Your fast movement earns people's respect.

You have a natural born leader type of talent.

You will struggle on the contradiction between your ideals and real world.

You may end up doing something beyond one's imagination, so you must try to have self-control.If you are opposed by someone, and although you know that they are right, you can not take it in easily.

You will be more successful if you can try not to go against people around you.

You tend to give too much attention to your family than to your lover. This may cause a trouble in that your lover may feel jealous about you being too affectionate to your family than to him.

You should not force your convenience to him, and try to give him more affection.

You are more suited as a career person than to stay at home. But once you get married you will take care of your family with great affection.
http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

Tired...

Been feeling rather tired these days. Wonder why... Haven't been staying up alot leh... Shall try to slp in more.

This week got 2 tests leh! Den still need to do 66.... haizz... stress... and feeling slpy is not helping lo.

Havent blog these few days cos generally feeling very tired lo... Too lazy to blog.

Even now also feel tired. Oh, the most impt thing that happened these past few days was....

I went to his place on Sunday... cos his parents invited me over for dinner lo... And his dad cooked la.... heh heh honoured leh.. Eat chef's cooking ok...

Ha i super score point. Bought ice cream to the house and scooped them for his parents heehee... :-) So I passed the test heehee...

Aiyo... really tired now. Blog more when I more energy.....

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Fun day!!

Just came back from an outing with the gals. It was just a simple dinner at J8 Pasta Mania and then we jus hung around the area to shop for Deb's cuz's bday present. Den after that went to get bubble tea and sit down and chat.

Everyone is damn funny la.. as in the conversations we have.. not the people hahaha...

Its been a long time since I went out with a big group of gals lo. Back to the Secondary feeling again... It was really fun lo. Must plan more outings more often. Especially there was the mention of MAHJONG!!! hahahaha... hands itchy liao.. Been sometime since I played mahjong liao leh... Den now got kakees and venue.... we lack THE DAY!!!

THE DAY to play mahjong... its diffcult lo. Cos of the work we have now... and everyone's with work up to their necks! And weird schedules here and there, its a bit tough lo.... But like gemaine say, WHEN THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY! haha.... hey peeps, find one day leh. I wed free day, free on Sunday evenings onwards. ALrite, shall post my free time here so we can plan one MJ day!

Monday, after 7pm
Tuesday, after 7pm
Wednesday, aerobics dance 1030-1130am the rest FREE. Unless I have my SS mid term, sometime in april.
Thursday, after 3, lunch with amy
Friday, after 4, 2 days will have SS tutorials from 4-6pm
Sunday, evening onwards :-)

So, who free when? Hahaha... now jio-ing... haha like plane boarding like that.. =p

Yeah! Tml is paktor day! heh... But den will b doing some serious stuff. Will go career fair, b4 buying my aerobics gear and fatty food hahaha...

Tml going down to California Fitness also. Shall jus go try out the 2 weeks free trial. If they decide to bug me, I'll tell them frankly that I have no money haha....

Wow, rather tired now.. gonna slp soon... yawnzzzzz....

Friday, March 04, 2005

Break time....

Heh actually it ain't really break time. Its jus the time before I meet the gals for dinner. Now enjoying aircon in computing lab.

Amy was asking if I wanted to go back home. But thinking of the trip back and forth, and not to mention the heat in my house, I think its still better to stay in school and enjoy the aircon. Furthermore, I can wait for dear dear and we can take the same train!

Another 30mins before I proceed down to Boon Lay mrt to meet my dear dear. That's so I need not rush with the 6pm crowd, and we can spend longer time together since the mrt ride frm Boon Lay to our destination is longer.

He's going to gym at Somerset while I meet the gals at Bishan at 730pm. Just nice, since he got to b at Somerset like 7pm. Normally we reach Toa Payoh at 7, so the timing's about just rite.

had lunch with dear dear today!! Heh surprise surprise... if u're wondering why he's not at work, he's actually out to lunch, and to the library to borrow books on Excel programming. So yup, meet up for lunch. And later meeting again!! Haha....

we're currently on msn together and chit chatting haha. He's still in the office but can msn one ha... yak yak yak haha..

Msn cheaper den sms leh.... haha... wonder wat to eat for dinner.... see what de gals want...
ha, just when I tok about uncertainties... Tml no need wake up at 9+ liao heh.. can sleep until afternoon shiok shiok.. But depends also la. Mebbe shall go sch earlier do some more 66. But den again, dun really noe wat to do for 66.. herm.. shall ponder over it in bed later...

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Uncertainties, uncertainties...

Dear dear's out on his run now, while I be at home wait for him to finish his run.

Meanwhile, shall update my blog. Another normal day for me today. Had class, lunch with Amy. But went to work on my database for my 66. Think I managed to set up all my tables. The number of tables look very little leh.. Especially in comparison to my 3214.. well, this time I decided, I shall jus try to fulfil the basics first before attempting to make the thing really full scale.

Anyhow, got some data into the database. Finally settled for MS SQL since I was really having problems with Oracle. Its hard to work in UNIX when u can't click, and pratically have to type everything into the database lo. And if u have a typo in the middle of the sentence, you would have to BACKSPACE, yes backspace, all the way to the point where the mistake occurred to edit it. Even cut and paste is difficult, as UNIX is rather particular about spaces in between your sentences.

Although you can type all your data into a notepad file and run it, its still rather tedious to visualize the tables. And also its because I'm not sure how I can do that. I did it for 3214 but now have already forgotten.

Wow, that was just 2 paragraphs of very technical stuff.... Sorry for boring you people out there heh heh.... Jus that for this semester, I seem to be ONLY taking CS3266 this module haha.. it's always on my mind since its 5MCs, and its making me like programming jus a wee bit more...

Oh did I mention that I signed up for the aerobic dance at AMK CC? Lesson is every wed, 1030-1130am. Cool eh... heh gonna go on my own.. it sounds like alot of fun. So exciting... Lessons starts next week. Dear dear's gonna support me by buying me the gear haha... I jus casually asked wat to wear ma....

Finally had the chance to like go on a proper date today. Usually its pak tor on the go for the 2 of us. Which means that we meet up at the mrt station to take the train home lo. But today went Funan, since his dad wanted to get an external HDD. So we got a proper date. The next one is on Saturday, and a little on Sunday. The feeling's like our second date like that hee.... Guess absence does make the heart grow fonder. Although its not that good also.

Was suppose to have a family lunch at the harbourfront resturant. Dim sum buffet, weekends only abt 20 per pax. weekdays only 14 after all the +++ and its HIGH CLASS dim sum. Its a chinese resturant after all. Long Men is its name. Dear dear's invited too leh!! But just heard that one of my relative's baby is celebrating her first month on the Sunday also, so not sure if the buffet is still on.... And dun noe if I have to go or not... We're not really that close anymore u noe... Oh well, its up to dad to decide now.

My parents have this mentality that we should go for occassions like first months, weddings etc etc. Firstly, to make the elders like see us to see how we have grown into, but most imptly is because we have to go so the next time if we hold such celebrations, people will come to ours as well.... Its rather true but... sometimes I very lazy leh.... lazy to socialise basically. And mostly when me and my brother are there, nobody toks to us one... Its jus to my dad or my aunt. So the 2 of us quite redundant.

I remember once my grandfather, my mum's dad, actually thought I was my brother's girlfriend lah!!! Aiyo..... old liao...

Dear dear's still not back yet. Herm think I shall go brush my teeth get ready for bed first. Tml waking up at 9+am.. and will be out whole day.

Resumes & Cover Letters

Today's not really a great day. For one thing, I spent like my WHOLE day doing the resume and cover letter for the Republic Poly application.

At first was rather enthu about writing it for the application lo. But i write until now super sian liao.... All the enthu drained.

Things not going very well for dear dear I think.... Think he's getting over stressed.. and there really ain't anything I can do.... Think he is doing too many things at a time... and he is being torn in many directions. His work, gym, tuition, his dad, family in general, his frens, and me lo... Oh well, things will be back to normal when his dad returns cos now I think his dad is trying to spend more time with him. So like ask him out and stuff... I think he's not really used to having his dad back. So having some problems now...

Now I'm trying to prevent myself from slacking for 3266 lo. Tml gonna do my database. Hope I can get my data in my database, so I have a full functioning database to test my pages with. If I can get that up, then i would be on track or I hope I not too slow. Since today's tut is about WebLogic only.

Wonder how to apply for jobs in career fair sia.... Shall go find out on Friday and bring all my "weapons" on Sunday when I go with dear dear again!