I feel so like my blog title now...

"I can't get mad at you for hurting me over and over again, cos over and over again I let you"

Sometimes its just so frustrating. But when the occassion strucks, the worry streak will occur again, and I will start again. Then the whole vicious cycle will jus start.

I WOULD have to stop worrying... That could be my new year resolution... among many others.

After the long weekend

Time flies when I'm just slacking at home...

And so fast the long weekend is over liao.. Sad.. Really miss the times in sch where the whole 2months is holiday...

Tml gotta work liao leh.. So sian man... Dun noe how i managed to survive the past few months and the future months to come leh.. Ha that's the problem with taking a break. For most pple's it will allow them to go further the next time. For me, I jus get lazier haha.. Must be rest not enough. Been shopping shopping and buying things heh heh.. I'm so ready for the new year! thinking if I should be doing a jigsaw puzzle, but the storage space is giving me problems.

Suppose to be cleaning up my room this afternoon. But ended up planning the timetable for Steffan and jus watching tv heh heh... And now that its getting late, I should be tucking in soon for there's work tml. But the room is really messy leh. And dun noe when I will have the time to clean up also. Ok shall go while I wait for Steffan to return from his run.

Finally embarking on my fitness journey. My private personal trainer aka Steffan has drafted a program out for me, which I have to stick to lo.. So ok la. hehe heh.. Using that as a guide and hopefully by chinese new year I will have a rather satisfied body heh..

OK time to pack my room! And have a full display of what I have bought heehee.. Start on the clothes first.

MERRY XMAS!!!

MERRY XMAS one & all!!

Had my long awaited KTV today! Heehee..

It was a great session. Been long time since went out liao. Now I noe the name of the 2 Hokkien songs I really like heehee.. And Des jus added a new perspective to the Lin Jun Jie song "dong jie".

There's another song, but I dun noe the original song so mebbe I will have to listen it first. Most prob I will have it in my mini heh..

Wah having long weekend soon! So happy! Finally time to slp in, do a bit of my own things and just not think about work.

Got a grade B for my performance heehee.. Quite happy I mean its a high score, but there's really room for improvement lo.. Den again it seems like its really easy to slip down also.. So yeah a bit pressured also.

TOday Steffan waited for me while I went for my KTV session at hougang heh heh.. Den he got lost when he came out from the MRT. Lucky today Des drive den she drove us back. If not i think we would have taken very long to reach home. Thanks babe! But Steffan still very poor thing... waited till late so he could pass me the xmas pressie for Des heh... U're the BEST!

Heh.. he's so good. Gotta commend him wor.. Especially since he has been so great for the past 11months plus. Going into our first yr soon, and things seem to be going well heh.. Jus hope everything stays that way.

Year end's coming time to go down to the temple again liao. And go during new yr too. Everything's been rather great in my life. I wonder if its cos I'm optimistic, or I'm just plain lucky. I jus hope I have a really great life. Really appreciate everything in my life now.

Looking forward to next KTV session heh heh...

Been getting lazy in my blog updates again. Cos most the time I am either too tired or too lazy to update. I will have to recap the happenings of the day and this is as tiring as writing my weekly status report haha.

Work on Saturday was another crash course on the Point-Of-Sales system. Haiz... Evyr Saturday will always have happening things one... Dun noe wan feel lucky or sad sia..

Monday was rather screwed up. Almost screwed up the training I was suppose to prepare but ok la. Managed to get things to work... Jus that it started a bit late la. But overall I think it was quite ok. Got it over and spent my day learning about the program.

Tues was ok. I got to stay in office and do my own stuff though not alot. Kept having roll back on my kiosk thingy even though I am sure the file is correct. So i had to keep walking up and down the stairway since the mock-up in de office is NOT working thks to Geek. But it passed very fast.

TOday jus stayed a little later in office. Had wanted to go gym, when I realised I din bring my padlock to lock the locker. So was having 2nd thoughts about it. Finally stayed in office to do work, and went to meet Steffan. Only then did Steffan remind me that I did not bring my workout shoes as well! Lucky I din go haha.. So blur sia.. Din even realise I din bring the shoes heh heh..

Went to the new makansutra place to eat. Its the hawker fare like thingy at Esplanade area. Ok la the things are supposedly those from the Orchard hawker last tiem one. So the pricing is also like food court even though the place is open air. The food's ok, but I still prefer Toa Payoh Lor 5 BBQ chicken wings heh heh..

Suppose to finish up my part of website revamp by the end of the week. But I'm covering for Margaret who's on leave now... Wah many many things leh.. Anyhow, she will be back next week so I can proceed with my things.. Sigh..

Tml's KTV nite! WHEE!! Heh heh.. Been toking abt it so long and finally found the place with the members' offer thingy. Found a new place too, b-Box at Toa Payoh Safra. Its really alot cheaper, I guess the timing is about the same for after 7pm, but the price is like $10.90+++ with 2 drinks. Only thing is, havent been there so wont know what the ambience is like, how updated the songs are, and the service and stuff. So, mebbe someday I would get some adventourous pple with me to go there. ANy takers? Hahaha..

Long weekends are coming! Heh hehe.. Loooking forward to all these breaks. THink its time to clean up my room.. Jus need some time la. I'm in the mood for cleanup. Especially when I am having problems putting my things and looking for them haha. I jus had a really ridiculous conversation with Geek. Shall post the msn here.

desmond - hello, tell u something
Me - yeah?
desmond - my bike break down while i'm coming back from work
desmond - luckily no accident
desmond - i park my bike at AMK, near to MRT station
desmond - just reach home
Me - wah serious ah? den how u get home?
desmond - take bus
Me - oh.. den nv send repair?
desmond - i leave anote on my bike.. hopefully no fine
desmond - so late already so will do it tomorrow
desmond - by the way, tomorrow i will be going to work
Me - bkt or island?
Me - or u going island take cab to bukit?
desmond - i will take bus o bukit
desmond - back to island take taxi
desmond - need to wake up early tomorrow
Me - long long time once ok la
desmond - wo bike very troublesome
Me - matter of habit
Me - ba
Me - many pple also take publi transport to work
desmond - ya lor... hopefully i can repaired myself..
desmond - just now i dont have the tools, my chain was loose and got jammed
Me - okie

I have no idea wat this conversation is abt... Haizz.. N the main point he is trying to tell me is that he is going to work even though his bike broke down?! Someone pls enlighten me..

I'm having suicidal thoughts....


Got ur attention din I? Hahaha..

Not exactly suicidal suicidal thoughts la... Had to do the Key Performance indicator thingy, and some goals anc challenges thingy for the 6 months and 12 months. 6 Months plan was ok jus that 12 months had nothing acceptable for it. having problem projecting wat I can and will do for the next 12months lo. Better still. I still have to think of 6 key performance indicators...

Ok the suicidal thought is I feel like planning to join the Management Trainee Program, or try to make it one of my goal lo. It seems very ambitious lo.. So its like dun noe leh.. And I will be stuck there for like 2 yrs, and I will have to keep upgrading myself and stuff lo.. I dun noe if I can make it or not... Oh well time to do some serious thinking..

Chris will be on MC tml! And Angela coming in in the afternoon only! So left geek n I go for lunch.. wah piang.. I dun noe if I can take it lo.. I jus hope he dun tok to me tml. Sometimes I feel my character sucks.. I mean I really cant stand the way he work and interact with pple, but whenever he toks to me or something, I will use the very nice tone and tok to him lo.. And when he needs help I will help him even though I'm super irritated. Then I'll feel sorry for him when he like cannot finish his work..

Now I cant stand something which is he tries to make it look to the outside pple that he is being exploited by boss lo. When he is NOT!! Wah lau... Cannot take it lo. And there are pple out there who think he really very poor thing leh! I cant believe it la!

Chris, Angela and I have came to this conclusion that Geek is not stubborn. He is jus infelxible and brainless, period.

Haizz.. His story everyday nv ending one leh.. Oh my... Testing my patience liao. Jus happy that at least one more of my problem which is my IA student is like leaving. Phew..

Wah late liao. Time to slp. WOrking sat too..

Yeah! Had another outing today.. Met up with D and Y! Heh heh.. Its nice to meetup with frens lo heh heh..

well, a few things have been happening, and will be happening. Firstly, my IA student is FINALLY leaving!! I think I'm one of those rare supervisors who cant wait for my own IA student to leave bwahaha.. But I dun really have much work for him lo. ANd when he dun give me trouble I already very happy liao. 2 more days! Yippee!! Cant believe I helping him countdown more then him.

Secondly, tml's dept outing. Well, not exactly dept outing la. More like some staff welfare outing thingy, which the MARcom, Membership and us are going. Boss will not be going though.. He super anti-social I thought heh.. Anyhow, if Chris is not going I think I would be weird going with Desmond..

And today in my rush to meet D n Y, I actually forgot abt one part of my work and left the office liao. Wah piang lucky my colleague reminded me and den I told boss about it.. Tml first thing in the morning will have to do it liao.

On the road to recovery now.. Strangely on my own. THink its cos of my sudden increased intake of fruits and water hahaha.. managed to keep the bug under control.

On yeah, gonna be moved around in the office soon heh heh..

Wow late liao.. Got my first xmas pressie today! Heh heh.. Wah really time for xmas shopping...

I caught something..

Yes, I caught something from seomwhere la...

Down with flu since yesterday.. Now I'm trying to ensure that it doesnt become full-blown influenze or something. One side of my nose is blocked, and I'm feeling really heaty, and dun noe wat else... Been taking flu tablets, and those drinks thingy but it hasnt worked.. ARGH!!

Went for a one day temple trip today even though I not feeling so good.. The symptons are in control, but my body is reacting differently.. ARGH.. I hate being sick make me unable to think leh.

Jus had a short counselling with Geek... Jus hope it helped la. Time to slp off my flu bug.. :(

I hate being a sickee..

My deadlines are getting nearer and nearer as the year gets closer and closer to the end. Sad leh..

Had to do a Key Performance Indicator write up, a Strength and Weakness and a short thingy for the goals and challenges in the coming 6 months and the next 12 months.

I think I will have to start working like really late in office soon so that I wont be too far off the deadline. Else this may not look so good on my performance grading thing leh.

Of cos there are more and more things for me to do la.. With the new membership card coming in, the new club system, new website, den gotta learn the MDS thingy wah... Ok i better finish up some things fast.. and REAL fast..

Looks like more late nights liao.. And so time to stock up more snacks hahaha..

Finally got some photo albums to put my photos in. So later will be doing that. Wah hungry liao. Shall go eat den make my albums heehee.. Watch my CSI Season 1 too ha. See how young Grissom was haha..

Got cheated!

Got cheated at gym today.. I mean also not really la. Went to gym cos today got pilates class, or all along that's wat is conducted on Wednesday nite la. But today i went to realise that it was actually BodyBalance. I think they are takin alternate weeks kinda thing, so as to promote bodybalance I guess. Class today was REALLY crowded.

Ha jus managed to complete the Hapland thingy from Ms Huang. Used the walkthrough cos I am really like lost as to wat to do.

Jus bought a bunch of CD-Rs but din get the CD sleeves.. I feel like an I-D-I-O-T. Haiz.. TMl will have to get them somewhere.

I'm noe like counting down for my IA student. Cos I really cant wait to let him go! So he wont give me anymore trouble. ARGH.. Maybe I'm jus not good with handling pple who are not interested.. I jus cant be like boss who jus keeps trying. Of cos I do try my best to help him as much as I can lo.. But den that's provided he allow pple to help. Chris is still optimistic, but I totally give up liao. Maybe he is sent to me to allow me to help others and get used to it.

I really start to wonder how boss can keep helping Geek over and over and over again, with all the counsuelling and advicing and watsnot. I think boss is going to drop him soon.. Maybe when our new colleague comes. Especially when he is not improving fast enough. I jus hope he bucks up real soon. He seems to be like a changed person, trying to change kinda thing. I jus hope its not a short term thingy..

Angela's leaving soon.. Her plan is to tender after the new year, and finally leave in Feb. So good rite.. Sad too, since its like everybody is leaving, and our lunch circle seems to be getting smaller and smaller. Maybe next time I will end up having lunch in the office.. ALONE.... AHH!!! *freaked out by own terrifying thought*

Ok cannot think so much. Dun freak myself out..

Bedtime. Tml dun noe have wat for work liao.. Sigh.

Of meet ups

Yes, finally had a crazy time with my crazy gal frens again haha... Been ages since we had those crazy tok cok sessions. Really relaxing sia.

But now I feel weird.. I think its cos of the heat this morning. Woke up at abt 9+ to go down to City Hall to give Steffan moral support for his full marathon. Heehee.. wanted to take a picture of him crossing the finishing line, but I actually missed him when he went past the finishing line. So diao k... Den after that I went for lunch buffet with my family, while he went to work. Den at 2+, came home, slept, till 5+ and went back down to Funan there to pick Steffan up from work. Den we came back to tpy together, and I went to meet my frens while he went back to rest lo.

Now both of us are feeling weird.. Like fever like that.. Think cos too heaty ba. Jus down some ice.. hope it helps... But I wan to watch the vampire show leh.. Oh no.. think i better go slp else tml I'm gonna suffer very badly liao..

New found love!

Heehee today found new love! Heheee.. and its this really cool drink i tried at Citylink! And its from GODIVA!! Foudn this big poster that was outside the shop that reads "Chocolixir The really cool chocolate drink" So Steffan and I went into the shop to try lo. Although it costs quite alot for a drink, but its VERY NICE!!!! I tried the dark chocolate one. And they have a milk chocolate, and white chocolate, which I think I should be trying soon heehee..The chocolate is really thick, and there are even chocolate bits in the drink!!

I jus like love it SO much! ARGHH.... But i feel so contented after drinking it. High leh.. Heehee. *Addicted* Everybody go try!! Heehee..

Tml's the marathon liao. But I cannot go support Steffan.. Cos tml's my brother's bday too. And the family's going for buffet lunch. Sad.. But ok la. He has his camp frens to accompany him. But the sad thing is that he has to work even after the marathon. I think the boss is really bad lo... After 42km of run den still ask pple to work. Evil rite... Den have to stand leh. Cannot sit some more.. Should be more supportive ma.. Oh well.. For money... Sigh..

Oh, boss got new colleague liao! Wah so cool! But den he'll only b joining us in Feb. Chris and I are speculating if he will be like Geek hahaha... :P But I dun think so la. He sounds quite qualified. With him joining, we will have new job scopes! Yeah! And I work with Chris! Heng sia. ANd our new colleague works with Geek.. Hope he can take it..

GM's resigned too. Most of us think cos he cannot make it liao. Seems like his support has collapsed liao. So there will be restructuring again soon, but wont affect us, meaning my level la. Guess its the management and managerial level ba. Mood at the club seems better, and GM have been keeping on a lower profile.

Wow, its marathon tml. Steffan's aslp liao. TMl I will be going to take him finishing the run heehee... Time for early bedtime..

Long days..

Past 2 days have been leaving the office at 8+ cos been trying to finish things. But not very effective leh. Still din manage to finish wat I hope to finish.. Oh well..

TOday came home late cos went gym. Went for my first yoga class today and I think it was quite traumatising cos the instructor was like talking very fast, and he din really demo for us. So I was quite lost and din noe what he was doing. But ok la got some really experienced pple and so I jus follow them. Ended gym at abt 10+, bathed and stuff, den had dinner, b4 Steffan sent me home. So in the end he went back even later. He just reached home like 15 mins ago.. And he hasnt bathed and he's gotta work tml! Wa xiong leh..

And I also gotta work tml. Saturday also.. Sianzz.. I'm back to being panda liao.. :( Must find more time to slp.

Ok jus dropped by a while to update a bit. Tml when I can really think more den I shall blog more.

I kinda miss Malaysia.. argh.. all the cheap things hahaha.. Or mebbe its the holiday feeling, of not doing work and stuff..